Confession #1. Did not go into work today to stay home and do some much-needed house organizing. Confession #2. Did not actually work on cleaning, sorting, donating, trashing until after 3pm when the dear mum came over to help.
However, I worked on sorting for a couple of hours while Mom was here and another couple after she was gone so that my dear readers - not that I have any yet, but in my mind you are already with me - was my workout for the day.
I must go to bed soon. I have quite a long day ahead and I am hoping the motivation fairy comes to me in my dreams tonight to hit me with a pillow-full of energy, enthusiasm and efficiency.
P.S. Still no shower yet, but I have actually cleaned off my bed and washed the linens so I will be washing away the grime so I can enjoy the scent of freshly laundered sheets.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Sunday, November 29, 2009
Marinating in Motivation . . .
So, okay. No exercise today (well, yesterday since it is now past midnight). However, my Monday goal is to pop in a yoga dvd to help me limber up this stiffening body and bring some flexibility back to my limbs. Beats the hell out of me why an aching, rigamortis-like body doesn't encourage me to do this everyday, but it remains my goal for Monday and I will blog the result NO MATTER WHAT!
One of my favorite T'shirts of all time is the one with a large bowl filled with the depression pill of choice that says, "Please pass the Prozac." Really wish I had bought that one when I saw it . . . At least my humor stays intact (for the most part).
Now off to dreamland where I hope to marinate in my motivation and wake up as an energetic, productive member of society who exercises, bathes, and dresses nice for the office.
One of my favorite T'shirts of all time is the one with a large bowl filled with the depression pill of choice that says, "Please pass the Prozac." Really wish I had bought that one when I saw it . . . At least my humor stays intact (for the most part).
Now off to dreamland where I hope to marinate in my motivation and wake up as an energetic, productive member of society who exercises, bathes, and dresses nice for the office.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Dreams Unleashed
This is it. The time has come - that moment when life has become so unsatisfying that something has to change. I am - God, I don't even know my age off the top of my head - is that a good thing or a bad thing? Well, I was born in 1965 so that would make me 44 years old. I have many things to be grateful for; I do know that so know one needs to remind me to count my blessings.
There are many things for which I am grateful - a loving mother and good memories of a father I loved very much, a sister I am close to, nieces and nephews whom I adore, a brother who has been known to touch my heart with his warmth, sensitivity and undying love for his children. I have a few friends that I can reach out and spend time with, but none that I see on a regular basis and I wish that were different. It can sometimes be lonely as a single in a couples world. I wish I would hear from my friends more . . . but I digress.
I am intelligent, witty, educated. I have a job I enjoy and colleagues I like. However, this blog is not about what I like about my life and gratitude - while an important attribute to have - does not give me the fuel I need to feed this fire of change.
The fact is I am motivated to write this blog to give a place where my internal life can move out of my head, my imagination and into my REAL life. I am sick and tired of sleepwalking through life and not having the life I want. There are many transformations that need to be made in my life to marry the internal with the external. I was told once that the further apart these two are the more dis-ease and anxiety one feels. Speaking from personal experience I believe that to be true. Maybe my internal and external points on the line of continuum have grown so far apart that it has triggered me to finally take action.
I have been at this place before but not with the same amount of intense dissatisfaction. Now there is an awareness that time - my LIFE - is passing me by while I sit or lie on the couch playing Facebook games, eating crap and gaining inches and pounds . My extra weight and lack of physical fitness is the primary cause of my current self-loathing. I am too young to feel this much pain in my body which I know is primarily caused by lack of exercise. I am hoping that this blog will give me an arena to express my desires, my frustrations, my setbacks and my successes so that I can narrow the gap between who I am and who I want to be. Come with me on my journey. I could use the company.
There are many things for which I am grateful - a loving mother and good memories of a father I loved very much, a sister I am close to, nieces and nephews whom I adore, a brother who has been known to touch my heart with his warmth, sensitivity and undying love for his children. I have a few friends that I can reach out and spend time with, but none that I see on a regular basis and I wish that were different. It can sometimes be lonely as a single in a couples world. I wish I would hear from my friends more . . . but I digress.
I am intelligent, witty, educated. I have a job I enjoy and colleagues I like. However, this blog is not about what I like about my life and gratitude - while an important attribute to have - does not give me the fuel I need to feed this fire of change.
The fact is I am motivated to write this blog to give a place where my internal life can move out of my head, my imagination and into my REAL life. I am sick and tired of sleepwalking through life and not having the life I want. There are many transformations that need to be made in my life to marry the internal with the external. I was told once that the further apart these two are the more dis-ease and anxiety one feels. Speaking from personal experience I believe that to be true. Maybe my internal and external points on the line of continuum have grown so far apart that it has triggered me to finally take action.
I have been at this place before but not with the same amount of intense dissatisfaction. Now there is an awareness that time - my LIFE - is passing me by while I sit or lie on the couch playing Facebook games, eating crap and gaining inches and pounds . My extra weight and lack of physical fitness is the primary cause of my current self-loathing. I am too young to feel this much pain in my body which I know is primarily caused by lack of exercise. I am hoping that this blog will give me an arena to express my desires, my frustrations, my setbacks and my successes so that I can narrow the gap between who I am and who I want to be. Come with me on my journey. I could use the company.
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