Dreams Unleashed

This is it. The time has come - that moment when life has become so unsatisfying that something has to change. I am - God, I don't even know my age off the top of my head - is that a good thing or a bad thing? Well, I was born in 1965 so that would make me 44 years old. I have many things to be grateful for; I do know that so know one needs to remind me to count my blessings.


There are many things for which I am grateful - a loving mother and good memories of a father I loved very much, a sister I am close to, nieces and nephews whom I adore, a brother who has been known to touch my heart with his warmth, sensitivity and undying love for his children. I have a few friends that I can reach out and spend time with, but none that I see on a regular basis and I wish that were different. It can sometimes be lonely as a single in a couples world. I wish I would hear from my friends more . . . but I digress.

I am intelligent, witty, educated. I have a job I enjoy and colleagues I like. However, this blog is not about what I like about my life and gratitude - while an important attribute to have - does not give me the fuel I need to feed this fire of change.

The fact is I am motivated to write this blog to give a place where my internal life can move out of my head, my imagination and into my REAL life. I am sick and tired of sleepwalking through life and not having the life I want. There are many transformations that need to be made in my life to marry the internal with the external. I was told once that the further apart these two are the more dis-ease and anxiety one feels. Speaking from personal experience I believe that to be true. Maybe my internal and external points on the line of continuum have grown so far apart that it has triggered me to finally take action.


I have been at this place before but not with the same amount of intense dissatisfaction. Now there is an awareness that time - my LIFE - is passing me by while I sit or lie on the couch playing Facebook games, eating crap and gaining inches and pounds . My extra weight and lack of physical fitness is the primary cause of my current self-loathing. I am too young to feel this much pain in my body which I know is primarily caused by lack of exercise. I am hoping that this blog will give me an arena to express my desires, my frustrations, my setbacks and my successes so that I can narrow the gap between who I am and who I want to be. Come with me on my journey. I could use the company.